“But we have to learn to be free. We have to, Nell. Doesn’t mean happy all the time, or okay all the time. It’s okay not to be okay. I told you that, but I’m relearning it myself. But not being okay doesn’t mean you stop living.”
― Jasinda Wilder
In the recent past, a rebel has grown inside me, it is no longer ready to accept things as it is, also this rebel thinks things differently from my former self, sometimes there is strong urge to do the opposite of what others say. It isn’t harmful, but many around me don’t feel that I behave normal or that my writings portray that I am in pain or not okay and also that I am a changed person. All of us change over time, don’t we?
And I am okay usually, but we all do have a lot of mood swings and my mind is like the thunder girl’s from the X-Men fame. Definition of okay is each to his own. The definition of it varies from people and circumstances.
In your twenties, with so many changes happening in and around, it is okay to be angry, okay to be sad, okay to forgive yourself and most importantly okay to not be okay.
And I convinced myself that I am okay, and I need not be satisfying others definition of being okay. Plus, I felt it was okay for me to feel what I feel and say what I say guilt free. Just live the way I want to happy, content and being more than just okay.